The person that I am not connate different report originally, appear very commonplace in boundless and indistinct sea of faces, but the life that I do not miss me is an illegible poem. I want to change course, go ahead solely accordingly.
我本不是天赋异禀的人、在茫茫人海中显得很平庸，可我不想我的人生是首潦草诗。我想改变航线，跟着光向前走去。
Before a few months, I am full of expectant high school the life, bump into broken head to also want to have been to high school to live, it came now. In can expecting with me differ completely, this lets me can't help wanting, good high school lives, be such?
在几个月前、我满怀期待的高中生活、撞破头也想去过高中生活，它现在来了。可与我预料中的完全不同，这让我不禁想，美好的高中生活，就是如此吗？
The likelihood is me temporarily lucky, I was stepping on fractional line to come, already made the thought preparation by good mat originally, what can see oneself name ranks a list in the mark continuously is final, that one instant, it is true break down.
可能是我一时幸运，我踩着分数线来了，本已做好垫底的思想准备，可直看到自己的名字在分数排名表的最后，那一刹那，是真的很崩溃。
Went up I just discover high school, high school does not have a novel at all medium so good. To me not talktive, for indrawn and self-abased person, can be too chilly really. Can sit on the seat all day long only on the class, bemused writing job, because did not play on the class,get very good person. Abandon friend people chat fervently, only I sit on the bed, listening to them to chat, I am silent as the grave. I also want to join them, but the heart always can be defied somewhat, fear missay word makes others awkward, fear terminative because of oneself the topic of others. Exercise is not written, attend class understand not, often make tired, do its water far good without others, feeling is whole a metropolis, with respect to you won't, for a long time cannot blend in them...
上了高中我才发现，高中根本没有小说中的那么美好。对我一个不爱说话，内向自卑的人来说，可真是太不友好了。在班上只能一整天坐在座位上、发呆写作业，因为班上没有玩得很好的人。舍友们都聊得火热，只有我坐在床上，听着他们聊，我一言不发。我也想加入她们，但内心总是会有所抗拒，害怕说错话令别人尴尬，害怕因自己而终结了别人的话题。作业写不完、上课听不懂、老是犯困、做事情水远没有别人好、感觉整个班都会，就你不会，久久不能融入他们……
The likelihood is me inner here is flimsier, very self-abased also not self-confident. Since went up high school, I am very tired. It is to send what go up from inner spirit is tired, a week always has so break down silently in the dormitory 9 night cry, the surface looks very good, but inner mood is already Protean, negative sentiment also cannot be revealed come out. Self-confidence has two words only, but it is very difficult really that I learn to rise. I too before the yearning, before my yearning all, I miss my friends, but I am like and cannot look round, I must go forth, get used to life of this high school hard.
可能是我内心此处较脆弱，也很自卑不自信。自从上了高中，我好累啊。是发自内心精神上的累，一周总有那么一两个晚上在宿舍默默崩溃哭泣，表面看起来很好，可内心情绪早已千变万化，有负情绪也不能表露出来。自信只有两个字，但是我学起来真的好难。我太怀念以前了，我怀念以前的所有，我想我的朋友们，但是我好像并不能回头看，我得往前走，努力适应这高中生活。
I am very afflictive, miss take flight very much. Take an exam to fear every time, be afraid of, how am I afraid of, my whats are afraid of, I am afraid of reciprocal, I am afraid that lubricious Mom is disappointed to me, I am afraid that the friend looks down on me, be afraid of what actor apply differs to the teacher slants forget to spend, be afraid of those who want to future is not me. I am good really be afraid of, I am very so tired!
我很难受，好想逃跑。每次考试都害怕，怕，我怎么不怕，我什么都怕，我怕倒数，我怕色妈对我失望、我怕朋友看不起我、怕老师偏优敷差的忘度、怕未来并不是我想要的。我真的好怕，所以我好累啊！
Why to still sleep partly at 12 o'clock, because still have more than 10 hours,be about to answer the school. I not be willing to part with or use sleeps, I am fed up with sheet to rest. The feeling is in everyday be pressed suffocatively by aeriform pressure come, knowledge seemed to meet be like again won't, enthusiasm of it doesn't matter, seem to be pushed to be worn, I want to stop very much delay one delay.
为什么12点半还不睡觉呢，因为还有十多个小时就要回学校了。我不舍得睡觉，我讨厌单休。感觉每天都在被无形的压力压得喘不过气来，知识好像会了又好像不会，没什么干劲，就好像被推着走，我好想停下来缓一缓。
My current high school is: Attend class call-over rise answer problem, did not return come out awkwardness arrives foot of dig or dig out with a finger or sth pointed, often take care oneself words and deeds, perhaps you just said a private words with who today, what will become their desk to go up tomorrow is weak endowment, your words and deeds is easy by " a person with high aspirations and determination " intended and misinterpret, schoolgirl intercourse is such. Finish class to want tiredly dead, but study task has not been finished...
我目前的高中是：上课点名起来回答问题，没回到出来尴尬到抠脚，老是小心自己的言行，说不定你今天刚跟谁说完悄悄话，明天就会成为他们桌上的淡资，你的言行都容易被“有心人”故意曲解，女生交际便是如此。一下课困得要死，但还有学习任务没有完成……
But do not have method, life choosing always is continueing, look ahead, always had met, be full of a hope to be met invincible. Hope my high school will be better and better, everything lives smoothly namely best condition.
但没办法，生活选总在继续，向前看吧，总会好起来的，满怀希望就会所向披靡。希望我的高中会越来越好，一切顺利就是生活最好的状态。
Should isolate when having aid, you should become the universe oneself, after dense fog comes loose, daylight shines greatly. I visit the lighthouse of far clear, that is smooth place, go ahead solely accordingly.
当孤立无援的时候，你要自成宇宙，当迷雾散尽后，天光大亮。我看清了远处的灯塔，那是光的地方，跟着光向前走吧。