The look that break and regains dials the heartstrings that moved me
失而复得的目光拨动了我的心弦
On the road that grows in me, always have so a pair aged and sere however amiable look is jumpy in the memory in me. He is like so faint all the time ground, looking at my gradually travel hard again however gradually far back,
在我成长的路上，总有那么一双苍老干枯却又慈祥的目光跳动在我的记忆里。他好像就那么一直无力地，却又努力地望着我渐行渐远的背影，
That year, I am 9 years old, be worth childhood period lively however very ripe age. Did not go to Lao father home for ages, when heading for the road of Lao father home to go up, ground of be favored with of mom garrulous long-winded tells me to say: “ reached Lao father home a little while, if,lord opens the door slow you are fastened urgent. You were not looked at when talking with you also do not get angry, when having a meal, the music on ……” car is full of in me all round. Strong, strong, weak, strong, weak rhythm tone held my ear, I did not listen to mom what to say after all carefully, just follow what music divides in the uneasiness on seat to seizing his body.
那年，我9岁，正值童年时期又活泼却又好成熟的年龄。好久没有去姥爷家，正在前往姥爷家的路上的时候，妈妈絮絮叨叨地告诉我说：“一会到了姥爷家，老爷开门要是慢了你别急。跟你说话的时候没看着你你也别生气，吃饭的时候……”车上的音乐充斥在我的周围。强，强、弱、强、弱的节奏声占据了我的耳朵，我没有仔细去听妈妈究竟说了什么，只是跟着音乐在座椅上不安分的扭着自己的身子。
Again and again, over and over, the frequency that presses a doorbell rises quickly ceaselessly, did not hear from beginning to end however inside the sound that open the door. Did not know to wait outside the door how long, the door opened eventually, the explore with the slow head that Lao as form of a address for an official or rich man come out, accost I go in. Casual, I the eye that to going up Lao as form of a address for an official or rich man, na Shuangceng becomes gloomy at the moment via clear eye without the god. The thing that is similar to white tumour is not big the not minor double key point that held him. Instantly, thrill through of a thought my brain, perhaps be not to believe, I shake my head quickly be denied. Want to look up again when me when call Lao to a form of a address for an official or rich man, he already face about took a kitchen. Chase after a kitchen all the way, called ” of father of acoustical “ Lao, he ases if was to be frightened jump, zun Wangwang, right look do not have full marks all the time however / have the figure that finds me. My tear flowed, lao father blindness! I gently the ground, hand that plays him slowly, resembling is say of the ground like groan: “ Lao as form of a address for an official or rich man, I am here. ” later, mom tells me, lao father got cataract.
一次又一次，一遍又一遍，按门铃的频率不断快了起来，却始终没有听到里面开门的声音。不知在门外等了多久，门终于开了，姥爷的头缓慢的探了出来，招呼我进去。不经意间，我对上了姥爷的眼睛，那双曾经清澈的眼睛此刻变得灰暗无神。类似于白色肿瘤的东西不大不小的占据了他的双眼。刹那间，一个念头闪过了我的脑海，也许是不相信，我快速的摇头否认掉了。当我再想抬头去喊姥爷时，他已转身进了厨房。一路追到厨房，喊了声“姥爷”，他仿佛是被吓了一跳，左望望，右看看的却一直没满分/有找到我的身影。我的眼泪流了下来，姥爷失明了！我轻轻地、慢慢地拉起他的手，像是叹息般地说道：“姥爷，我在这儿。”后来，妈妈告诉我，姥爷得了白内障。
Spent about two weeks again, lao father is sent into the hospital to waiting to become an operation. I am pulling his handle gently to ask him gently, be afraid of? He is very relaxed like say: “ is not afraid of, if the eye treats bad word, see the small granddaughter that is less than me! He or amiable in that way laugh wear ” , resemble in one's childhood he sees me in that way, it is the eye …… be dead of Na Shuangqing clear only. I am crying helplessly in surgery doorway for the first time, that once is my vitality the Lao of important pillar as form of a address for an official or rich man, be dead, be dead, that look be dead.
又过了大约两个星期，姥爷被送进医院等待着做手术。我拉着他的手轻轻地问他，怕吗？他很轻松似的说道：“不怕，要是眼睛治不好的话，就看不到我的小孙女了！”他还是那样慈祥的笑着，就像小时候他看我那样，只是那双清澈的眼睛……不在了。我第一次无助地在手术室门口哭泣着，那个曾经是我生命力重要支柱的姥爷，不在了，不在了，那个目光不在了。
The following day, I still am to go to school, and Lao father accepts eye ministry treatment in the hospital, the successful rate of the operation is very low, my heart first time is empty, that look also became memory it seems that. So flat life spent for a long time, until one day after school, I saw a pair of familiar eyes, it is Lao father! That once I regard the look of jewellery as to come back, came back!
以后的日子，我依然是上学，而姥爷则在医院里接受眼部治疗，手术的成功率非常低，我的心第一次空了，那个目光似乎也成了记忆。这样平淡的日子过了许久，直到有一天放学后，我看到了一双熟悉的眼睛，是姥爷！那个曾经我视为珍宝的目光回来了，回来了！
He still resembles amiable in that way before look at me, as if returned once upon a time, he is playing the likelihood that my little hand ramble is by the side of the river. It is wherefrom begins momently only, that pair of eyes, that look is looking attentively at my gradually to go no longer gradually far back, it is mature to gazing at me to become however the face that is permeated with joy again. That is broken and regain the look is breathed out, it is me all one's life jewellery.
他还像以前那样慈祥的看着我，仿佛回到了从前，他拉着我的小手漫步在河边的样子。只是从那一刻开始，那双眼睛，那个目光不再注视着我渐行渐远的背影，而是凝望着我变得成熟又洋溢着快乐的面庞。那失而复得目光呵，是我一辈子的珍宝。(文/于畅)