She, it is a student of second year in high school by achievement mat formerly, with the a gang the hobby makes up dress up, the good boudoir of not attend to one's proper works or duties is sweet a dawdle. KTV, ramble night fair, skip enlighten, they make up to allow the clothing with move, fashionable dress to live in recreational world every day delicate.
她，原是个成绩垫底的高二学生，与一帮爱好化妆打扮、不务正业的好闺蜜一起混日子。KTV、逛夜市、蹦迪，她们化着精致的妆容、穿着时髦的衣服天天生活在娱乐世界。
Accident, she by school discharge, did not have the university that rises continuously, also did not have the direction of the life.
一次意外，她被学校开除，没有了直升的大学，也没有了生活的方向。
Her father and teacher think she is a person by achievement mat all along, cannot accomplish sth. The teacher calls her ” of “ person broken bits avowedly. Father teachs a little brother merely, there is the scorn to her in bearing of words and deeds. To retaliate father and teacher, by discharge later, she resolutely the decision signs up for class of extracurricular take lessons after school, attend the university entrance exam, let father and teacher see his actual strength. She falls in the help of teacher of cropland of extracurricular class level ground, saw oneself difference, the knowledge that learns 4 year as a child simply learns to rise. Everyday on the way home, she is riding a bike at the same time, reciting the English word that just learned at the same time, be being caught by crepuscular sunshine of golden city this at the same time, give along with hearsay a sturdy recital sound ……
她的父亲和老师一向认为她就是个成绩垫底的人，不能成事。老师公然叫她“人渣”。父亲则只顾教导弟弟，言行举止之中透露着对她的轻蔑。为了报复父亲和老师，被开除之后，她毅然决定报课外补习班，参加高考，让父亲和老师看看自己的实力。她在课外班坪田老师的帮助下，看到了自己的差距，便索性从小学四年级的知识学起。每天回家的路上，她一边骑着自行车、一边背诵着刚学的英语单词，在被黄昏的阳光染成金黄的城市的这一边，随风传出一阵阵坚定的背诵声……
such, “ avenged ” to give her the first power of study.
就这样，“复仇”给了她学习的第一份动力。
But the time is not long, their home pays the tuition that does not have class of take lessons after school. The study that father shows to not be her stoutly spends a minute of money. But all savings that the little sister takes out him generously, the mother lends money humblily to kin, oneself also had evening shift to earn more money to be worth. She knew the fine of mother and little sister suffers from the intention, dare not slight more study. Go up with the friend's party, she is keeping operation; Of lakefront green shade below, she is keeping operation; Below the desk lamp of the late night, on the wall in she or indefatigable writing job Home …… , stick full thickly dotted scrip, writing the intellectual place of her new learning. Scrip of a piece of Zhang Xiao, hang on wall silently, added gorgeous colour …… friends a few times to understand her idea for drab metope, also decide noninterference her study. However, when the Morpheus inadequacy of night makes she attends class by day often catnap, the mother is called up the school, got of the teacher blame. When just when she wants,abandoning, think of so much person supports hers, she insisted bravely to come down.
但日子不长，他们家交不起补习班的学费了。爸爸表示坚决不为她的学习花一分钱。但是妹妹慷慨地拿出自己的所有积蓄，母亲低声下气地向亲戚借钱，自己也为赚更多钱值起了夜班。她知道了母亲与妹妹的良苦用心，更不敢怠慢学习。与朋友的聚会上，她在写作业；湖边的绿荫下，她在写作业；深夜的台灯下，她还是不知疲倦地写作业……家里的墙上，贴满了密密麻麻的纸条，写着她新学的知识点。一张张小纸条，静静地挂在墙壁上，为单调的墙面增添了几番艳丽的色彩……朋友们理解了她的心思，也决定不干扰她的学习。然而，夜晚的睡眠不足使她白天上课时经常打瞌睡，母亲被叫到学校来，受到了老师的责备。正当她想要放弃的时候，想到那么多人对她的支持，她勇敢地坚持了下来。
such, was thankful the 2nd motivation that she learns.
就这样，感恩给了她学习的第二份动力。
Study always can have bottleneck period, she attends top-ranking college of Japan with taking an examination of formerly —— is celebrated should the university is a target, but be in successive a few times imitate takes an examination of in sufferring a defeat, she begins to oppugn her ability. To renew fight, she asks a mother to took her to look around to celebrate should university, see the spectacular event over there. In advanced institution of higher learning, there is full self-confidence on student face, extensive is worn each smiling face of glow, give abundant spring in the air fully. She is envied extremely, look at students to discussing a subject to composition of computer joy ground, she again sturdy target, I should stand up again! Mom wishs to be mixed to her originally celebrate should the university combines a film, she however act vigorously says like that: The next year such as “ is taken an examination of went up to celebrate should university, I come again with its group photo! ”
学习总会有瓶颈期，她原以考上日本的一流大学——庆应大学为目标，但在连续几次模拟考的失利中，她开始质疑自己的能力。为了恢复斗志，她请母亲带自己参观了庆应大学，一睹那里的盛况。高级学府里，学生脸上都洋溢着满满的自信，泛着红光的一个个笑脸，透出盎然春意。她羡慕极了，看着学生们对着电脑欢乐地作文讨论着题目，她再次坚定了目标，我要再站起来！妈妈本愿给她和庆应大学合个影，她却奋然说：“等明年考上了庆应大学，我再来与它合影！”
This, the consciousness of ego gave her the power of more study.
这一次，自我的意识给了她更多学习的动力。
Initial study is to feel wronged and act rashly “ avenges ” , but this is too puerile after all, an indignant energy passed, can become again hesitate and confused. The study later is to be thankful, had aspirant with opener breadth of mind, but still be for others learning. Final study is for him achievement, let oneself become more self-confident!
开始的学习是为了赌气“复仇”，可这毕竟太稚嫩，一波愤怒的劲头过了，又会变得彷徨而迷茫。后来的学习是为了感恩，有了上进与更开阔的心胸，但依然是为了别人在学习。最后的学习是为了成就自己，让自己变得更自信！
The night that so much suffers is not boiled in vain after all, after setbacks, she achieves what one wishes eventually on ground take an examination ofing everybody is long of Huai Mu Lin celebrate should university! From bottom of a mat hot younger sister becomes a high end to learn bully her, it is the film " mat bottom hot younger sister " Sha Ye adds the heroine labour cane in.
这么多煎熬的夜晚毕竟不是白熬的，在一次次的挫折后，她终于如愿以偿地考上了所有人都久怀慕蔺的庆应大学！从一个垫底辣妹变成一个高端学霸的她，就是电影《垫底辣妹》中的女主角工藤沙耶加。
When the target that seeks study, I ever also encountered bewilderment.
在寻找学习的目标时，我也曾遇到困惑。
I original, it is a peacockish girl, because result is right,be praised in the school all the time. But a winter vacation, as a result of epidemic situation spread, we get online in the home class. This paragraph of time, did not have the teacher's encouragement, praise that did not have a classmate, I begin the end of loss study. Just when I am confused during, the game on the net appears special know me, immediately capture my heart. I begin to learn to play game, want to carrying parents on the back to get online everyday. This is a new world, each Lou Yu over there exciting, each building is gorgeous. I of avaricious amuse oneself, was developed by game brains, do not have discovery right-down however, oneself are being concealed to be in the dark world of flourishing backside to be gobbled up ceaselessly by this. I as if drop into abyss, cannot extricate oneself ……
原来的我，是个虚荣的女孩，因为成绩不错在学校一直受到表扬。但上一个寒假，由于疫情的蔓延，我们都在家里上网课。这段时间，没了老师的鼓励、没了同学的夸赞，我开始迷失学习的目标。正当我迷茫之际，网上的游戏似乎特别懂我，立刻俘获了我的心。我开始学打游戏，每天都要背着父母上网。这是个新奇的世界，那里的每一座楼宇都扣人心弦，每一间房屋都富丽堂皇。贪心游玩的我，被游戏冲昏了头脑，却全然没有发现，自己正被这隐藏在繁华背后的黑暗世界不断地吞噬。我仿佛坠入了深渊，无法自拔……
In game, I upgrade ceaselessly, the cause was found in fictitious world, found full achievement sense, let my achievement suffer a disastrous decline however. Finally, below mom's help, I see the essence of game clear eventually: They are passed upgrade, add gold coin, enter close achievement move is acquired in waiting for a method to let a player be in fictitious world, but feeling of this kind of achievement is very wispy, visional, the self-confidence that gets through game is not dependable, the success on screen of bureau be confined to, and cannot bring any changes to real life, wasted valuable time and energy instead. I seek the target of a study eventually, buddhist monastic discipline dropped game.
游戏里，我不断升级，在虚拟世界里找到了目标，找到了满满的成就感，却让我的成绩一落千丈。最后，在妈妈的帮助下，我终于看清了游戏的本质：它们通过升级、加金币、闯关等手段让玩家在虚拟世界中获得成就感，但是这种成就感十分飘渺、虚幻，通过游戏获取的自信并不踏实，只局限于屏幕上的成功，而不能给真实的生活带来任何改变，反而浪费了宝贵的时间和精力。我终于找回学习的目标，戒掉了游戏。
Blindly from self-identity feeling is sought to be mixed actually over there other like achievement is being sought to feel in network game, it is a bottomless pit. We should look upcountry, see him Qing Dynasty, him understanding cherish his, study is to accomplish ego, teach oneself self-confidence, let oneself grow, because learn the most essential objective to let his become better namely!
一味地从他人那里寻求认同感其实和网络游戏里寻求成就感一样，都是无底洞。我们应该向内看，看清自己、认识自己并珍惜自己，学习是为了成就自我，教自己自信、让自己成长，因为学习最本质的目标就是让自己变得更好！(文/张在洲)