Some people say that the world is created by lazy people, but I don't quite agree with it. Those who have made contributions are not really lazy. At least they have never stopped seeking knowledge and exploring. I don't know when we will begin to yearn for such a lazy life and enjoy such a stagnant life.
It seems that I've been crawling in the lazy mud. Sometimes I feel like I'm going to get out of the mud. But at this time, I fall back into the mud again and wander back and forth. It is said that I am serious and diligent. In fact, I know that I am not that kind of person. At least diligence is a real pain for me. It is often said that I forget the pain when I feel pain, which is paralyzed by pain, but I can't work hard and forget the lazy heart and the body and mind suffering for diligence.
Sometimes I study all day, but I don't know what I learn, so I am empty; Sometimes all day in the novel, too clear what they are doing, so I am still empty. The mood of remorse is the most oppressmood in the world! When you think about the mistakes you made, it seems that every minute you wasted has become a knife and an axe that stings you, so you continue to do nothing in the infinite remorse and guilt.
I have tried many times, I told myself in my heart, you have to read a few minutes of words every day, you have to read a few minutes of books every day, what do you do every week, but it never lasted a month. I don't like this kind of me. I want to work hard, but every time I am blinded by my inner laziness. I'm lazy and lazy. I'm really afraid that one day I'll be too lazy to have a bright future.
Most of the time, I don't want to write such "self-review". Such articles are boring and ineffective, but I still want to record this awakening.有人说，这个世界是由懒人创造的，我不太赞成。那些有所贡献的人，并不是真正的懒人，至少他们的求知、探索未曾停歇。我不知道何时开始我们开始向往这种慵懒的生活，享受这种死水般的日子。
我好像一直在懒惰的淤泥里艰难爬行，有时一股做气，似乎就要脱离泥潭了，可这时却又一不留神重陷入淤泥，就在勤与不勤间来回、徘徊。很对人都说我认真、勤奋，其实我自己知道我不是那样的人，至少勤奋对我来说是件着实痛苦的事。人们常说，痛着痛着就我忘了这种痛感，这是被疼痛麻痹了，可我却不能勤奋着勤奋着就忘了懒惰的内心，忘了为勤奋而痛苦着的身心。
有时候一整天在学习，却不知道自己学些什么，我因此空虚着；有时候一整天泡在小说里，太清楚自己在干什么，所以我仍旧空虚。自责的心情是天下最憋屈的心绪了吧！你回想着自己犯下的错，那些被你浪费的一分一秒好像现在都变做了刺痛你的一刀一斧，于是你在无限的自责和愧疚中继续无所事事。我曾努力过很多次，我在心里告诉自己，你每天要读几分钟单词，你每天要看几分钟书，每周干哪些事，可是从来都没有挺过一个月。我不喜欢这样的我，明明是想努力一番的 可每一次都被内心的懒惰所蒙蔽，懒惰着懒惰着，我真怕哪一天我真的懒过头，懒掉了光明未来，懒掉了花红柳绿。大多时候，我是不愿意写这样的“自我检讨”的，这样的文章实在有些乏味而且效果不佳，可我还是想记录下这次的幡然醒悟。