“ this essay examination questions is " I am chasing after a star " , the operation that how to keep yourself? Lose oneself? ! ”
“这篇文章题目是《我在追星》，怎么没写你自己的行动啊？把自己弄丢啦？！”
“ careful problem has by accident, serious sideslip! ”
“审题有误，严重跑偏哦！”
Since went up first 3, these commment appear in my composition to go up originally ceaselessly, my composition also begins by 45 minutes, turn into 42 minutes, even “ devalues ” arrives 36 minutes 37 minutes. Previously often active I in teacher public date, also begin to disappear from the scene.
自从上了初三，这些评语不断出现在我的作文本上，我的作文也开始由45分，变为42分，甚至“贬值”到36分37分。以前经常活跃在老师公众号里的我，也开始销声匿迹。
Actually my problem myself knows, do not wish to reveal oneself in the composition true view and experience, the title suits to write narrative apparently, I also am willing to write argumentative writing more, say some of big and empty truth is perfunctory, the task that finish. After the teacher raised modification proposal to me, because work,also be excuse more and lazy revise at starting work. Formed a vicious circle then: Poor —— of style of writing notchs low —— is lazy notch at changing —— lower. My perfunctory him moves, ground of feel at ease and justified turned an outfit into sleeping person.
其实我的问题我自己都知道，不愿在作文里表露自己真实的看法和感受，题目明显适合写记叙文的，我也更愿意写议论文，说些大而空的道理敷衍一下，完成任务。在老师给我提了修改建议之后，也因作业多为借口而懒于动手修改。于是就形成了一个恶性循环：文笔差——得分低——懒于改——得分更低。我一次次敷衍着自己，心安理得地变成了一个装睡的人。
“ are you to say to want to become a writer? ” chats with the friend, she asks me. I am stupefied suddenly, yes, people asks about my dream previously, such I answering. My composition, it is I am brought all along think those who be proud. Acquire junior high school as a child, my composition often is regarded as model essay reads aloud classmates to listen, nowadays, it became my weak force unexpectedly.
“你不是说想当一个作家吗？”一次和朋友聊天，她问我。我突然就愣住了，是的，以前别人问起我的梦想，我都是这样答的。我的作文，一向是我引以为傲的。从小学到初中，我的作文经常被当作范文念给同学们听，如今，它居然成了我的弱势。
“ is, nevertheless now, I should abandon this possibly dreaming ……”
“是啊，不过现在，我可能要放弃这个梦想了……”
I discuss my current writing current situation her to listen, she is surprised: “ your style of writing is so good, why to want to abandon? " the watcher in cornfield " ‘ of a word can remember, forget this, the composition ’ that the change can change although we can be encountered in the life a lot of as meaning, but the ……” that we can endeavor to be able to change us
我将我目前的写作现状讲给她听，她诧异道：“你的文笔这么好，为什么要放弃呢？《麦田里的守望者》有一句话‘记住能记住的，忘记该忘记的，改变能改变的作文’虽然我们在生活中会遇到很多不如意，但我们可以尽力去改变我们能改变的……”
A word, be just as be filled wisdom. Let me think of you cannot wake that “ up forever the person that an outfit sleeps, unless he himself decides,awake. ”
一番话，犹如醍醐灌顶。让我想到那句“你永远无法叫醒一个装睡的人，除非他自己决定醒来。”
I cannot continue to install sleep. I want a change! Must change!
我不能继续装睡下去。我要改变！必须改变！
I made a plan, agitato tells mom me to this semester wants to implement what kind of great plan.
我制定了计划，兴奋地告诉妈妈我这学期要实现怎样的宏图。
She listens to me to say patiently, say slowly: “ didn't you feel to plan aerospace this? You are specific one day reads book of a few pages, write the essay of how many word, achieved have what money reward, did not achieve have what penalty. These should be the content in your plan. One day reads two pages book also is to look, writing two also is essay, still not be perfunctory oneself, install sleep? ”
她耐心听我说完，缓缓地说：“你不觉得这个计划太空了吗？你具体一天看几页书，写多少字的随笔，达到了有什么奖励，未达到有什么惩罚。这些都应该是你计划里的内容啊。一天看两页书也是看，写两行也是随笔，不还是在敷衍自己，装睡吗？”
I complement at once plan, must let a change this time come a few more violently!
我连忙补充计划，这回必须让改变来得更猛烈一些！
I visit this “ week one day 5 pages book, carried an an excellent work on the back, write two essay, copy writes, achieve formerly. Please maternal adult check and approve! ” on the weekend, I let mom help me an examination, she looks gratified the ground laughed.
“本周我一天看5页书，背了一篇佳作，写两篇随笔，仿写一篇、原创一篇。敬请母亲大人审阅！”周末，我让妈妈帮我一项项检查，她看完欣慰地笑了。
“ finishs a month to reward a new book continuously, half-baked criterion a week cannot see TV ……” plan of I am compensatory my rewards and punishment.
“连续完成一个月奖励一本新书，未完成则一周不可看电视……”我补充着我的奖惩计划。
“ is good! Clinch a deal! Congratulation the right that you acquire this week to watch TV! The distance takes a new book close one pace. Change, it is a kind of manner. Very rejoice, the time that you awake is not late still! ” mom is patting my shoulder, I felt to there is different responsibility on the shoulder.
“好！成交！恭喜你获得本周看电视的权利！距离拿到一本新书又近了一步。改变，是一种态度。很庆幸，你醒来的时间还不算晚！”妈妈拍着我的肩，我感觉肩上有了不一样的责任。
Study is the first responsibility of my bear. Leave perfunctory, my deciding can welcome different change.
学习是我肩负的第一份责任。告别敷衍，我定会迎来不一样的改变。(文/许彬彬)