One
一
The network is a Shuang Renjian, without doubt, what I handhold is sword blade.
网络是一把双刃剑，毫无疑问，我握住的是剑刃。
That is a next moves of spit in the morning, the boy that is the same as a street invites me to stroll, walk along somewhither, one face is opposite the boy mysteriously I say: “ goes quickly, I take you to go to a good place. ” says, vigilant sweep all around, the pulls me to ascend on one end length to grow stair of to walk gingerly, although,come to broad winding around however the place of foul atomsphere, the boy left me stage, return me beside when, on the hand much already a few pieces of small card, he gave a piece to give me, say to want to take me to play a very interesting game. I the mood is special at that time fear, but also having to break manacle, break through no-no pleasure. It lets be if I am crazy be like drunk, and the dazzling human world with its myriad temptations in the network more let me meaning random expression is confused, such, I became the slave of the network.
那是一个下着小雨的上午，同街的男孩邀我去闲逛，走到某处，男孩一脸神秘的对我说：“快走，我带你去个好地方。”说完，警惕的环视四周，蹑手蹑脚的拉我登上一段长长的楼梯，来到一个虽宽广却缭绕着乌烟瘴气的地方，男孩离开我去了吧台，回到我身边时，手上已多了几张小卡片，他递了一张给我，说要带我去玩一个很好玩的游戏。我当时心情特别害怕，但也有着一丝打破束缚，冲破禁忌的快感。它让为我如痴如醉，而网络中的花花世界更让我意乱神迷，就这样，我成了网络的奴隶。
To get online, I must save daily breakfast cost come down, from time to tome insufficient when, I learned to lie, lie later by get behind, I die with thickskinned beg goes back on my word in vain.
为了上网，我不得不将每日的早餐费节省下来，时有不够的时候，我便学会了撒谎，后来撒谎被识破，我便厚着脸皮死乞白赖。
This is a bad beginning merely.
这仅仅是一个不好的开始。
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二
Network, that is us what see it only is good, the harm is the least bit however do not know, also know probably, but also was paid no attention probably.
网络，那是我们只看到它的好，危害却是半点不知，或许也知道，但大概也被熟视无睹了。
Among them most endanger a person, game perhaps blame secondarily, the harm on the thought just is the heaviest.
其中最危害人的，游戏也许尤在其次，思想上的毒害才是最重的。
Be put in the summer only then fill a flower, leave however in spring, this itself is a kind of mistake. Perhaps be the influence of the network, perhaps be me year of young ignorance, but its after all is to happen, kept a paragraph of graven memory in my memory.
那只存在夏季的盛花，却开在春天，这本身就是一种错误。也许是网络的影响，也许是我年幼无知，但它总归是发生了，并在我的记忆中留下了一段不可磨灭的回忆。
That is a dusk, if can have an insatiable desire for me what play to aux would rather,the teacher lets our swing —— forgo this activity. Boy G is the friend that is close friends with me as a child. G invites me to go his dormitory plays, the teenager's nature makes like that, we begin a debate twice when whose courage is a few greater, who cannot persuade, finally, do not know be I or him to offer, “ makes us respective write to profession letter, send a woman student? ” we two feel very interesting, after agreeing it is good to write, give the other side, still have by —— of pass on of the other side must not peek. You look, how do this resemble a fun?
那是一个傍晚，老师让我们自由活动——如果可以贪玩的我宁愿放弃这活动。男孩G是从小就和我要好的朋友。G邀请我去他的寝室玩，少年的天性使然，我们两个开始争论谁的勇气更大一些时，谁也说服不了谁，最后，不知是我还是他的提议，“让我们各自写一封表白信，送个女生？”我们俩觉得很有趣，便约定写好后，交给对方，由对方转交——还有不许偷看。你看，这多么像一场玩笑？
Yes, this is fun originally, open the fun …… of the destiny
是的，这本来就是玩笑，开给命运的玩笑……
The destiny does not accept fun, he was sneering to retaliate —— of 4 a slap on the face from ridicule, I am an injury is the deepest
命运从来不接受玩笑，他冷笑着回敬了四个耳光——自嘲一句，我是伤的最深的
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三
I can be blamed originally at other, but final it is I am pulled as before laid all blames.
我本可以怪罪于他人，可最终依旧是我揽下了所有的罪。
Because of it, I got the chasten with the most serious throughout history, have those who come from a teacher, have those who come from family, still have those who come from the heart.
因为它，我受到了有史以来最严重的惩戒，有来自老师的，有来自家人的，还有来自心灵的。
Of incident case by very simple, very funny also, my N ＋ writes a composition 1 get online to be caught. This to it before have make clear beforehand of different —— classmaster, if be captured again, great processing. When she says this word, the face annoys awfully.
事件的起由很简单，也很可笑，我第N＋作文1上网被抓。这次与之前有不同——班主任有言在先，如果再被抓住，重大处理。她说这句话的时候脸庞愤怒得可怕。
Have two hours only from return to school after the vacation, I am punished because of be fear of and the body trembles slightly. The plan —— that my impoverished intelligence quotient cannot give me to offer any effective also does not have what good consideration in fact. Then I resolutely the choice of definitely I think now the most foolish —— I think the cleverest plan —— runs away from home at that time.
离返校只有两个小时了，我因惧怕惩罚而身体微微颤抖。我贫困的智商不能给我提供任何一个行之有效的方案——事实上也没有什么好考虑的。于是我毅然决然的选择了一条现在我认为最愚蠢——当时我认为最聪明的方案——离家出走。
The night of that Chu Dong, became me the coldest winter of whole life.
那个初冬的夜晚，成了我整个生命的最寒冬。
This, I harmed myself, also injured the person that loves me most. They are disappointed to me, I remorse to their ashamed.
这一次，我伤害了我自己，也伤害了最爱我的人。他们对我失望，我对他们愧疚。
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四
The life, it is by darkness arrives another darkness.
生活，是由一个黑暗到另一个黑暗。
After running away from home, I had —— of a mobile phone if,I believe if my family can foretell to did not come, they won't give me the mobile phone certainly.
离家出走后，我有了一个手机——我相信如果我的家人如果能预知未来，他们一定不会将手机给我。
This paragraph of time, what I indulge to be built for me in black unreal novel thoroughly is visional and in the world of bizarre and motley, I seem to live in another world at common people, I and all round antipathetic.
这段时间，我彻底沉迷在玄幻小说为我营造的虚幻而光怪陆离的世界里，我于世人就好像生活在另一个世界，我与周围的一起都格格不入。
For the novel, I before dawn just will enter Mian tomorrow. One morning time is to sleeping. As to the knowledge that the teacher explains, feel embarrassed —— is like is to daydreaming.
为了小说，我明天凌晨才入眠。一上午的时间都是在睡觉。至于老师讲的知识，不好意思——好像是在做梦。
Of course I pay heavy price for this, looking at the bright red fork on period end examination paper and poor grade, my silent not language.
当然我为此付出沉重的代价，望着期末试卷上鲜红的叉以及可怜的分数，我默然不语。
Listened to a person to say in the past, life is just like department button, the first department is wrong, the following also follow a fault. The river of days won't flow backwards, in the past we cannot be redeemed, can be only repent hard in prospective day.
过去听人说，人生就好比系扣子，第一颗系错了，以后的也就跟着错了。时光之河不会倒流，过去的我们不能挽回，只能是在未来的日子里苦苦忏悔。
To me, is have not such? Life is line of a chain of cause and effect originally accidental or inevitable result, accidental is germinant, inevitable is a result.
对于我来说，又未曾不是如此呢？人生本就是一连串因果线偶然或必然的产物，偶然的是开端，必然的是结果。
Since the result already was destined, am I destined to be met only everyday waste time and unfruitful? I can does be most willing to accept failure? can I cringe before the destiny only? Not, absolutely not! I want thoroughly remould oneself, exuviate drops be failure completely, commonplace callosity. I should obtain renascence, renascence is in the most beautiful Shan Dian. I should surmount my final fetters and handcuffs, fail, be partitioned by others at will is not my fate absolutely! I should bury exanimate thoroughly yesterday, in looking up at sky most the stars of bright.
既然结果已注定，难道我就每天注定只会蹉跎以及徒然吗？难道我就只能心甘情愿接受失败吗？难道我就只能在命运面前卑躬屈膝吗？不，绝不！我要脱胎换骨，蜕掉满是失败的，平庸的老茧。我要获得重生，重生在最美丽的山巅。我要超越自己最终的桎梏，失败，任人宰割绝不是我的宿命！我要彻底埋葬已死的昨天，仰望星空中最璀璨的星辰。
Remember realizing a paragraph of very classical word in passing for nothing:
记得悟空传中一段很经典的话：
I want this day again also block does not live my eye, I want this ground to also do not bury my foot again.
我要这个天再也遮不住我的眼，我要这地再也埋不住我的脚。
I want all this deity Buddha to vanish completely, I want this all living creatures to understand my desire.
我要这诸天神佛都烟消云散，我要这众生都明白我的意。
Future, I am going up in the road.
未来，我正在路上。