To the grandma I am dissatisfaction begin in the memory of childhood. 4 years old of my half, the spare small model that accidental opportunity lets me favour became TV shopping channel, often should go to a TV station filming direct seeding program, take me naturally by emeritus grandma only. Still remember once, my gluttonous, want to drink the on small supermarket bar beverage in the stage. Although I tangle to grind the ground forcedly to cry to death,be troubled by, grandma from beginning to end impartiality crosses a head to come, see me, just sink next gas tell me in a low voice: “ darling, water was carried here, beverage is insalubrious, than outside expensive still! She is knitting ” all the time so brows is fooled persuade me. I clamorous see short of end, one face is detested with furious, the head also does not answer the ground to run away. The grandma does not have flite I, also did not compromise however, just follow silently at the back. Eventually, I stop, turn round goggle at of ground of brimming with tears she, the grandma pulls me gently at the same time, mouth of the move that tighten close lightly, still what word also does not say. From now on, I feel she grudges pettily, the beverage even 10 yuan also not be willing to part with or use is bought to granddaughter.
童年的记忆里开始对奶奶我是不满的。我四岁半时，一次偶然的机会让我有幸成为了电视购物频道的业余小模特，经常要去电视台拍摄直播节目，自然只有由退休的奶奶带我去了。还记得有一次，我贪嘴，想喝台里小超市柜台上的饮料。即使我死缠硬磨地哭闹，奶奶始终不偏过头来，看我一眼，只是沉下气小声告诉我：“宝宝，这里带了水啊，饮料不健康，比外面还贵！”她就这样一直皱着眉头哄劝我。吵闹的我见达不到目的，便一脸厌恶与气愤，头也不回地跑开。奶奶没有大声骂我，却也没妥协，只是默默地跟在后面。终于，我停下，回头泪汪汪地瞪着她，奶奶轻轻地把我拉到一边，紧抿着嘴，仍然什么话也不说。从此，我便觉得她小气吝啬，连十元的饮料也不舍得给孙女买。
Fish of grandma firm check comes cancer, besides deep feeling, sigh, remain also have only silent. A day, I what empty stomach rumbles classes are over come home, see the grandma leans in windowsill alone only, armrest ancon is being maintained, both hands is grasped 10, the back in Yu Hui is such feeble. “ grandma ” , she turns come over, orange the setting sun is illuminated mirror go up in grandma face, appear to be made the same score palely added luster, but, the white hair of sere Zhi Leng, the eyelid of slouch, fall for nothing falling eyes, do not escape to pass my key point, her lip Zhang Xiyi annulus, tighten close lightly eventually, still be whats did not say. My of muddled composition returns shy with strangers to be born at that time ask: “ grandma, the chili that still wants to eat you to do tonight fries the flesh, row not? ” grandma becomes stunned, lower one's head forced smile, be like tone of long Shu Yi, look up sturdily again, sound is hoarse however: “ is OK of course! ” her face about takes a kitchen, wash dish to cut dish to already was done not have former days deft. Should cut the flesh, see his palm is opening a top of a table only, between topping double shoulder, the head is to be hanged on neck almost, she is breathing slightly, vacate a hand to brush sweat. At this moment what I also realize myself is not sensible, say rapidly: “ grandma, otherwise still calculated. ” grandma just is placed place a hand, continue to cut the flesh, whats did not say.
奶奶刚检查出来癌症，除了感慨、叹气，剩下的也只有沉默。一日，饥肠辘辘的我放学回家，只见奶奶独自倚在窗台，靠手肘撑着，双手握十，余晖中的背影是如此的单薄。一声“奶奶”，她转过来，橘色的夕阳照映在奶奶脸上，似乎给苍白平添了光彩，可是，干枯支棱的白发，耷拉的眼皮，空落落的眼神，都逃不过我的眼，她嘴唇张翕一轮，终于紧抿，还是什么都没有说。当时懵懂的我作文还怯生生问：“奶奶，今晚还想吃你做的辣椒炒肉，行不？”奶奶一愣神，低头苦笑，似长舒一口气，又坚定抬头，声音却是沙哑的：“当然可以！”她转身进厨房，洗菜切菜已没了往日的麻利。该切肉了，只见他手掌撑着桌面，高耸的双肩之间，头几乎是挂在脖颈上，她微微喘息着，腾出一只手擦汗。这时的我也意识到自己的不懂事，赶紧说：“奶奶，要不还是算了吧。”奶奶只是摆摆手，继续切肉，什么也没有说。
Again later, the illness of the grandma worsens ceaselessly, the over and over again is being done change cure. Sparse white hair does not know when to fall off sadly, the skin on the hand does not know when to appear come close dark spot. Come out every time, the hand is to grasping white sheet closely, the tooth dies to death the lip below bite into, back stoop is worn, double leg of curl up crouch. I am clear, change cure beyond painful had not stopped. My nose one acid, eye hair is acerbity. Go by, ask a grandma in a low voice, do you ache? The eye fan that she is shutting, brows is being knitted closely, shake one's head, did not talk. I am grasping her sleeve closely, almost sob phonate, this ability squeezes her dry and cadaverous double lip a two words: Do not ache.
再后来，奶奶的病情不断恶化，一次又一次地做着化疗。稀疏的白发不知什么时候悄然脱落，手上的皮肤不知什么时候冒出来细细密密的深斑。每次出来，手都是紧紧攥着白床单，牙齿死死咬住下嘴唇，背佝偻着，蜷缩着双腿。我明白，化疗的余痛还未停止。我的鼻头一酸，眼睛发涩。走过去，小声问奶奶，你疼吗？她闭着的眼睛扇动了一下，眉头紧皱着，摇了摇头，没有说话。我紧攥着她的衣袖，几乎抽噎出声，她干燥苍白的双唇这才挤出俩字：不疼。
What the grandma goes is very unruffled that day, 19:33, of the family member call, she was heard, still did not speak a word.
奶奶走的那天很安详，19点33分，亲人的呼唤，她听到了，依然没有说出一个字。
Grandma, the agonized feel sad of her lifetime, resolute bear, after dying, my Cai Mingwu. She always is whats do not say, undertake the whole thing everything in the heart.
奶奶，她一生的苦涩心酸、刚毅隐忍，离世后，我才明悟。她总是什么也不说，把一切包揽在心中。(文/罗惊鸿)