The world is so great, why do I still stay in place absolutely still however? Life is so brief, why do I feel years is so long however can't bear heavy burden? The life is so wonderful, why is my day so bland unexpectedly be without rise and fall? I myself often ask myself so, I such few are weak dull is living, going bored to deathly, like an utterly worthless person boiling, for what be after all? Can be how, life is too helpless, the life is too complicated, I search a home to return to that is less than my from beginning to end, those who look to not be clear about oneself before road, decide no less than oneself goals, cannot realize the value of oneself.
世界这么大，为何我却还停留在原地纹丝不动？人生这么短暂，为何我却感觉岁月如此漫长不堪重负？生活这么精彩，为何我的日子竟是这样平淡无奇毫无起伏？我常常这样自己问自己，我这样寡淡无味的活着，百无聊赖的走着，行尸走肉般的熬着，到底是为了什么？可是奈何，人生太无奈，生活太复杂，我始终找寻不到自己的归宿，看不清楚自己的前路，定不下自己的目标，实现不了自身的价值。
Between this hazy the world, I am loafing about with respect to what so muddled muddled understands, wandering, force in this stricture in the one party heaven and earth of a coffin with corpse in, between this deserted heart, in this 3 fetch of law-abiding adventitious under 6 soul, on a pair of the body of this ignorant, besides confused, it is confused. Turn one's head is old years, look into prospective foreground, my suddenly detects, oneself besides scratch one's head over, the panic that remains far from the subject only stopped, I do not know myself this whereaboutldirection where, move toward He Fang, be attributed to He De.
在这朦朦胧胧的人世间，我就这样懵懵懂懂的游荡着，徘徊着，在这狭窄逼柩的一方天地之中，在这空空荡荡的一颗心灵当中，在这安分不定的三魂六魄之下，在这浑浑噩噩的一副躯壳之上，除了迷茫，就是迷茫。回首往昔岁月，展望未来前景，我蓦然发觉，自己除了迷惑不解，就只剩下漫无边际的恐慌罢了，我不知自己该去向何处，走向何方，归于何地。
The city is so big, street so wide, the pedestrian is so much, I do not know to whether have me only a person is so helter-skelter, so commonplace, so useless. Occasionally, the envies others life that I can cannot refrain from, the life of yearning others, the achievement of deep feeling others, look up at the position of others, when but become me to try to be in the life mode apply mechanically of other,oneself go up personally, I discover I am manacled abruptly, I am closed in a new prison in composition basket, do not reflect a bit light, cannot discover a crack, cannot find an aid, see less than allowing that why to hope, cannot get any saving atone for. Then, I think my all one's life such, my life also can such.
城市这么大，街道这么宽，行人那么多，我不知是否只有我一个人这么狼狈，这样平庸，这般无用。有时候，我会情不自禁的羡慕别人的人生，向往别人的生活，感慨别人的成就，仰望别人的地位，可是当我试图把他人的人生模式套用在自己身上时，我猛然发现自己被束缚住了，我被关在了一个陌生的牢作文笼里，照不到一点光亮，发现不了一丝缝隙，找不到一个援手，看不到任何希望，得不到任何救赎。于是乎，我就认为我的一辈子就这样了，我的人生也就只能这样了。
I know of course, oneself too too inactive, too too self-abased, a lot of moment, I also abhor so weak oneself, can't bear oneself, incorrigible oneself, can not know how, no matter I how do sth over and over again, how to move up and down, my destiny is so labyrinthian still, so rough. Can be blue sky, I pledge I had tried hard, had tried, had struggled, had struggled, pray came over, had petitioned, but why my life train still is so capricious and piquant, always do not get control, derail at any time? Perhaps be me really too too cautious, too cross shake with fear, because I always am so sensitive, be jealous of of such be apt to, so my spirit just is met so dispirited, so decadent, my ability that it is a person will be so cowardly, such disgust.
我当然知道，自己太过消极，太过自卑了，很多时候，我也痛恨这样软弱的自己，不堪的自己，无药可救的自己，可不知道怎么的，无论我怎么折腾，如何扑腾，我的命运还是如此曲折，如此坎坷。可是苍天啊，我发誓我努力过了，尝试过了，奋斗过了，挣扎过了，祈祷过来了，祈求过了，可是为何我的人生列车还是这样任性调皮，总是不受控制，随时脱轨？也许真的是我太过小心翼翼，太过心惊胆战了，因为我总是这样敏感，这样善妒，所以我的精神才会这样萎靡，这样颓废，我的为人才会这样懦弱，这样令人厌恶。
Although,can be such, although my living is so horrible, my idea such 100 turn 1000 fold, my state of mind is so inactive laches, my spirit is so dejected, my the body can'ts bear uglily so, I still did not abandon hoping, did not abandon future, did not abandon oneself, did not abandon ego. Turn one's head goes looking, even if I still stay in place to do not have progress, without achievement, but I or him hope can not forget first heart, continue to advance, continue to change, continue to search, although did not come may bramble suffusion, bruise again and again!
可是即使这样，即使我的生活这样惨不忍睹，我的心思这样百转千折，我的心态这样消极懈怠，我的精神这样萎靡不振，我的躯壳这样丑陋不堪，我还是没有放弃希望，没有放弃未来，没有放弃自己，没有放弃自我。回首去看，纵然我还停留在原地没有进步，没有成就，但我还是希望自己能不忘初心，继续前进，继续改变，继续寻找，尽管未来可能会荆棘满布，伤痕累累！(文/姚变花)